February 2012
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January 2012
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philosophy is blowing my mind right now. come to think of it, all my classes are blowing my mind right now. i’m writing papers on whether the existence of God is rationally justified, reflecting on how evil & humanity go hand in hand and why God doesn’t intervene. i’m sitting in classes discussing biblical truths and historical significance of the bible. i’m listening...
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the past few days, i have felt life tying up all sorts of loose ends. this morning, the end to a two year headache and annoyance finally arrived in the mail. as much as i healed and moved on long ago, i finally felt like the crappy mess from junior year was settled and done. such a little thing—something i downplayed like crazy—has played an extremely significant role in my life. even...
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twenT.12
its 2012 & for some reason i am still weirded out by it. i’ve obviously experienced a lot of “new years” (usually like once a year haha) but for some reason the transition from 2011 to 2012 was especially trippy. lately, i’ve felt like i can literally SEE time passing. passing quickly. i spent a lot of time contemplating life over break (mostly because i was by myself a...
December 2011
9 posts
imagine yourself as a living house. god comes in to rebuild that house. at first, perhaps, you can understand what he is doing. he is getting the drains right & stopping the leaks in the roof and so on; you knew that those jobs needed doing and so you are not surprised. but presently he starts knocking the house about in a way that hurts abominably & does not seem to make any sense. what...
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November 2011
8 posts
joy
We all live with the illusion that joy will come someday when conditions change. We go to school & think we will be happy when we graduate. We are single & are convinced we will be happy when we get married. We get married & decide we will be happy when we have children…and so on. “This is God’s day,” the psalmist says. It is the day God made, a day that...
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God loves you in spite of you. Not because he has to, but he wants to. Think about this concept for a minute. mind-blowing, really. God loves us IN SPITE OF US. everything about us is running desperately away from him. everything about this world tears us away from his embrace; feeds us lies that we don’t need him, that he isn’t there; whispers in our ear that we can fix ourselves,...
beautiful things
You make beautiful things You make beautiful things out of the dust You make beautiful things You make beautiful things out of us
i first heard this song when i got here, & i really love it. it’s just plain catchy. it’s a nice idea—the idea that god can make something beautiful out of us. that he wants to make something beautiful out of us. while pondering this simple fact,...
October 2011
23 posts
flipping through page after page of old journal entries—handwriting strewn, a rainbow of pen colors, some written hurriedly out of frustration, some written tediously with care—and i was suddenly overcome with a fascination with words. there are over 250,000 words in the english language. with that huge number there have been literally billions of different combinations—resulting...
“woe to the man who fights with his creator. does the pot argue with its maker? does the clay dispute with him who forms it, saying, ‘stop, youre doing it wrong!’?”
lord, let this truth permeate every aspect of my life.
holy sponges
its two in the morning & there is REALLY no reason that i’m awake right now, especially since i didnt have homework due & i have to wake up in six hours………..but, here i am. STORY TIME:all of my life, i feel like ive been a sponge. i think its human nature to conform to the people around us, but i think i have it BAD. what i call a sponge is someone who picks up on...
here dies another day
during which i have had eyes,ears,hands
and the great world round me;
and with tomorrow begins another.
why am i allowed two?
why doesn’t anyone ask that why question?
-ann voskamp
i love the times in life where god just straight up convicts you. i just think there is something really beautiful about brokenness—it really hurts at the time, but it makes you feel alive. i feel numb a lot. i feel fake a lot. i like to feel broken. i like to feel so broken that all i really want is a hug. and i like being filled with the hope that jesus forgives & jesus loves &...
ephesians, again :)
it’s late & i’m straight up determined to get to bed before 12 tonight, but i was reading through ephesians in the message version (it seriously gives you an entirely new way of looking at things. love it) and this stuck out to me: People who have never heard of God and those who have heard of him all their lives stand on the same ground before God. They get the same offer, same...
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